oh jake. thank you for sharing something so personal.
i hope everything is going ok for you now. and if it isn't, hang in there.


<3

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me + + = me on a couch with a pretzel

what emma said.


I hope you get through this, Jake. <33

you're not alive if you're numb to feeling; i can't remember your touch.

^^ I really like that quote.
It's a good piece and I hope everything turns out for the better. This, too, will pass.

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I've got multiple personalities and my inner children are runaways.

there's nothing one can really say to take back all the pain and hate.

there's nothing one can really say to someone one has never blamed.

there's nothing one can really say to something that one cannot take

there's nothing one can really say to those who waste their lives away

there's nothing one can really say to lies and jokes and stupid pranks

there's nothing one can really say to persons who have lived a death

there's nothing one can really say to unestimatable prices being paid

there's nothing one can really say to people dying everyday

and there's nothing one can really say to things that one will never know, never dream, never hope, never comprehend the pain beneath, all i can express is my deep sorries.

There's nothing one can say to someone who has been through so much, and lived a life in which breeds hate

All I can do is write this, and hope it isn't taken offensively.

There's just nothing, I can say, to a person, I love, and have hurt so badly, and i waste away in my shame, but i know i can't relive the past, i just want you to know, that i didn't mean any of the things i said, the things i did, i was stupid, very stupid...

And I hope that you're doing okay, and life is going well, and nothing will stand in your way

I hope that the past is behind you and you're ready to come back into the world, forgetting the awful things you may have experienced.

I hope all is well with you.

Even in the toughest times, people can chose to live.

I hope you chose to live



This may sound like i don't care, but i do, i just feel as if i can't say anything, because i know nothing of what you've gone through.

and i feel awkward telling you, to just keep going through, what may be worse than death

Just for me, and my selfishness of not wanting to lose you.

All i can ask of you is for you to do what you think is best, even if others may not agree, though, i wouldn't make rash decisions...

those can lead to fatal endings.

Okay, I'm done talking now.

You may want to overlook this comment as a release of feelings stephanie is having right now, and nothing more.

I love you Jake

I hope all is well.

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From my heart to yours,
Stephanie Goldkopf

i am currently in a state of confusion over dealing with my boyfriend - and the fact that he is constantly fucked up on anything and everything. jake please please please dont get dragged through the mud for this shit. i fucked up and now i crave my painkillers like hell (2-3 hydrocodones <3 + atleast 10 shots of segrum + air freshner + a diet pill for the perfect numb hyperness) and dammit i feel bad telling you to stay away when i know i wont take my own advice. so be careful. and dammit, i refuse to shoot up. i'll huff,smoke,snort, anything that doesn't require a needle.

this comment made no sense. i'msorryjakeiloveyoubecareful.

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we were young&dumb
but we still had fun
and i guess these things just tend to fall apart

my girl:

this piece was about ketamine, a drug that i'm all too familiar with. in the town i used to live in (and am moving back to...) used to have a pretty good drug flow from a big city around there. most kids just did pot, occasionally shrooms or acid, but nothing like...insane. i met this boy, we became closer and closer. i guess the meaning i was trying to convey with this was that the drug was the only thing we really had in common, or the only way we could be on the same wave length. i don't know.

all i know is that i really miss him, &i don't know what kind of mental state he's in since i've left him. ketamine can have the same side effects as cocaine. it's used as an animal anaesthetic (sp?).

right now i take it twice a day. it's a scary thing to deal with...


anyway, darling, your comment is appreciated as always. i've missed hearing from you.

be safe. iloveyou.

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<3

you've always been my doll. you know i'll always love you.

i'm pulling it together.

i hope.<3

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thank you for the fave, emma.

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I'm glad

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From my heart to yours,
Stephanie Goldkopf